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Good morning sir, i am not sure from were to start but i  can tell u because of one reason i took this step, sir i was touched by ur words from the day one, ven i was shocked by the stregth of the class and age differece bewwen me n other people i was lost all my hopes only tears n fear left in my eyes n heart, my brain left me with many question which i had no answer, i was trying to shre my feeling with one of my close friends but to my gd luck he was not replying to my sms that moment. that time u enterd the class at 1st i thought u r not the sir i was wrong, after few mini i started feeling better, sir ii found u as a down to earth person u r ture i r the last one in my life as faculity, ur words ven u said it's personality basha back ground made me feel gd, sir i have the same zeal i want to prove my parents i want to achive smth for them, this was my dream n my goal i want to make my mom happy she is my back bone, sir till my b.tech all my steps r wrong i am a 2011 pass out with no back log by my 4th year yes i have less percentage which is my draw back but sir but my strong part is my hard work and my dedication but i will always choose a path which has end, my parents both r hard wrking both gave more then wat i wanted, they never asked me to go for job, boz of less percentage and according to my friends doing masters n doing job over der was the only idea n way for my future i thought n very lately i understood they cant effort my master still they tell me not worry u go, after that from many months i was in home mean time i was sick and afraid by future and finally decide to sucide my thoughts ran in my mind ven ever i look at gas stove but i was not eough brave to do that i share everything with my mother, n i was forced to join for java n oracle classes n they made me not to stay in home i didn't knew my mom shared with my father. then later few days my dad school buddy is mr sai chintal(vice president of apps lab) i shared my views with him i want to go abroad but 1st iw ill work den later with my money i will go by my own, i asked sai sir to show me path as nthg more i was expecting from me since my dad said me from 15years he was in US n recently he returned back.And sir i m asking u same thing show me the path i ready to work hard i want to prove my parents i want to c the smile on my mom which she lost long back, she always think some day it will happen le sonu dont worry n make me feel better inside i know wat she feels. sir not only i want to crack a job but also a gd efficent emplyee in testing. i have same zeal sir i want to prove for my family den show path to other humans, after i know my areas of my error i asked my frinds who r now in 4th year not make the mistake i did. wat ever i did with out knwing abt that i did....plz guide me sir. i m ready to do anything. i dont want to c tears this time in my mom eyes n i m not brave eough to commit sucide... sorry sir i know u dont have reason to help me but i have no option . thanking u shashank. this all i wanted to talk but i emotional person i cry very soon so i took ur email id